i think i have switched train cars

suddenly.

yes!

mystical brain stuff.

science and trips
in one small
NOM.

one night out and i sunk so deep

my brain is on the same level
as your feet
and my body is
flipped
upside
down
down
up
side

today as a 'nutheR dAy

i decided not to go to bed and to bike around the town because it's dawn
and i like this part.


brain:

rapid brain

RAPID

RAGGED

(rag'ed)

and i am forgetting how to type on this thing because i am used to the typewriter,
and i suppose that is super(b).

and still can afford internet, so it's sparing.
here's the word:

break it

fix it
TIE IT IN A KNOT
SHIT.
not shit.
KNOTSHIT.
NOTTTTTTTTT.
HA!



it moves a lot in my head.

what just said sounded backwards
WHAT ARE YOU SAYING.
no man!

i'm writing as someone is speaking
and its someone not me.

octopusses are sexy.
image not text.
HOLLA!

Why are we doing this?

Layin' in bed around 7 this morning thinking i may sleep for a few hours and go on with the day. Well i was awake. and i was with gillian. so we laughed really hard and i couldn't stop crying from laughing, which never happens and it felt awesome. we we're wondering why we were even getting into bed. because we assume our body needs to lay horizontal and shut down in order to continue. right? WELL I DON'T KNOW, I SUPPOSE ANYTHING CAN BE REAL IF WE WANT, RIGHT?
pardon. then we laughed at the thought of "bed" and the preparation that is done before, and the blankets, and pillows, and mattress, and pajamas, and WHAT IS ALL THAT?

ah-dannow.

i am going to play with my brain and see how long i can go.

some of the other homies are doing something brand new or different this week as well.

it's like a documentation of the shadows casted by the mundane and whats hiding

in our brains.


who knows. i am in absolute experimental mode for the next month and a half before i get down to business, but with my time left here, i am going to sink in deep, but with a dog mask on.

so it's like actively participating in everything present, in the opposite way of it's intention.

like COLLEGE.

okay, so it's been 30 hours and i wrote something crazy last night and i feel kind of crazy right now. but i suppose that's rather norm-mal. norm mal. ha. haaaaaaaaaa. this music makes me feel really okay and i kind of feel like i am in a middle-eastern, lounge in SPACE floating into blackness and furthering a mystical wonder that's ignited so intensely within my rib cage. weird things in the corners of my eyes. like dark shadows bouncing. the computer screen doesn't help. and my vision is a tad blurry, i am noting. this is silly. but thats fine because laughing feels EXCELLENT. and so we'll just keep going and note some fancies along the way. K!

hungry, but no appetite.
cold, but no desire to change
happy, but NO BUT! I AM HAPPY AND I AM EXCITED AND I AM ok.