conscious vanguard

tryn'a move.

2010-11-25T09:00:00.000-08:00

give thanks,
and sit with the blood you
left,
so
long
ago.

tryn'a do this now: http://theeyewithini.tumblr.com/

soma

2010-11-14T13:33:00.000-08:00

and the and the
what - the
what-the
don't know don't know
a damn thing
one thing
two thing
three
thing
four.
-stop
-Go.
and in and out
why and how
forget and foreground
remember the AFTER thought,
or sound
and the air
of my mind
is the hands
soft and steady
down your spine
and coming
out
your
EYES
-fall into
and a B o U t,
caught up,
caught OUT
let me in,
alone,
so alone,
so many people,
so much MASS,
solitude beyond FORM
you late shuns
and die
live
grow and
fine, OH fine,
no contact for the hungry organs,
not feeding,
not hoping,
just dreaming
with some act
shun
and
ing
ing my mean and full
FILL my time,
here.
wastedered
&
just
Us.
(as if we ever HAD it)

i hope

2010-11-13T09:23:00.001-08:00

we can do this.

and some following words

2010-11-08T12:35:00.000-08:00

so long to the holidays

2010-11-08T12:23:00.000-08:00

and everything we have made,
here.
our love and our hate,
on our fists and on our chests.
blank walls and empty rooms,
leaving early,
what else could EYE DO-
push & pull,
and running,
forever.
resting while i can find the
time, or in this CASE_ minD.
drifting through
questions with only
clues and no SENSE
of the absolute,
but the overbearing,
sense that such exists,
at,
all.

i have no idea what i am doing,
but no more hiding,
and no more dissolving,
the earth is rising,
the universe is calling,
and my palms are shaking,
for all of this ENERGY,
engulfing.

stay tuned,
and keep them eyes PEELED,
the care is not gone,
just buried,
and i am not digging,
only, slipping through.

so long, house of many noises and sounds,
so long, neighborhood of lost and found,
this lesson has been long and dark,
and in attempt to shine on,
move on,
this ones on me.
good bye for now,
rhapsody.

ill all ways remember
this chapter

and our LO
VE

Get Happy

2010-11-04T21:24:00.001-07:00

or die
bored,
lonely,
and mostly scared.

cold bones

2010-10-31T10:11:00.000-07:00

i don't know what happened.
everything turned
all at the same
Time.
it was everything.
and now its nothing.
To separate from the one thing
inseparable,
intangible,
the light is not something we can dismiss.
and so the days are just
days.
and all these lovers
are just that.
love my fucking bones out.
break it down,break it down.
these SEAMS
are tearing.
rip it up in your face and spit it up in the Air.
let it ALL FALL DOWN.
connection is concocted.
and if your pain is as deep
as his
as hers
as its
well than, happily ever after,
after,
after,
after...

to you,
and to you,
your Irony is
displacing,
and the chill in my spine,
reminds me.
we
are
all
ways
a
lone.

tic toc

2010-10-24T17:09:00.001-07:00

have you ever just STARED

2010-10-23T17:06:00.000-07:00

at the Ground?

p.s.

Cleansing the Walls of Mind

2010-10-23T17:05:00.000-07:00

HEAD SOUTH HEAD SOUTH

2010-10-23T16:58:00.000-07:00

and than head north as fast as you can.

notes from charlie town:

Light shines and We find

2010-10-23T16:16:00.000-07:00

the rays
to be
a live.

(click fo' BIGG AH)

back in back out back back in in out outt

2010-10-07T14:14:00.000-07:00

whaT

(click and grow; clickandgrow, click'N'grow!)

Lines and Circles

2010-10-02T15:17:00.000-07:00

Love.
this feeling and the spirals are,
surrounding,
this time.
this thing.
that fucks.
and fucks holes.
and holes.
and i've got this hole.
i drew.
i drew it inside my belly.
each night i rest my head.
and the hole has been filled.
for that day.
and i wake up.
empty.
time.
to fill.
again.
with this new day.
and i wonder why.
i keep drawing this circle
within my flesh
and nerves,
so beyond such tissue,
of stretching contractions,
push & pull,
run run run,
and i really am not feeling this
race.
where are the smiles
where is the purity
what happened.
masses of proportioned
mind.
and where is the rest?
sha-sha-sha,
i am dreaming up,
something beautiful,
for myself,
all one,
for,
now.

My circle will never be satisfied,
and this i know and rest in
the sky
of the infinite,
i believe and i be.
all
i
ever
wanted
to do

was

be.

I am aware, that this is indeed,
the most A-mazE-ing, mystery,
and a mystery is to be.
and i figure,
and figure,
but there is no
OUT.

my skin is only
penetrated.
the ink can only, re-main.
and i am looking for the feeling.

and i enjoy the feeling.
in my belly.
being filled.
i am not only a mind.
i don't want to be just a brain.

All i ever wanted,
was to hold your hand,
and look in your eyes,

and to ask you,
"how do you feel about this, YOU?"
-indeed, and what if i told you...
it . does. not. matter.

your matter
is matter.
and so you matter.
but no mind, never matter,
never matter, no mind.

and so whoever your Mind,
you Be,
and you entertain this thought and that thought,
with WHAT
feeling?

am i thinking?
am i feeeling?

am i FUCKING BEING?

, and i want to stare deeply into your
eyes,
tell you,
who ever, you THINK or have Created, you,
to, be.

Thank you.

You are beautiful.
and a PART of the most amazing creation we could ever
possibly
WONDER.

i love you.

and,
love.

proud

2010-10-02T15:01:00.000-07:00

that i'm not proud

AnD WORD!

here. we .are.

(ya knOW!?)

keep

2010-10-02T14:38:00.000-07:00

your heart strong

and love long

and give

kisses when you can.

buh-really,
lissen to whole album and
the song, "kisses"

WhAT .the.fuck. HAPPENed ?

2010-09-29T14:14:00.000-07:00

Cloud Bursting

2010-09-29T14:02:00.000-07:00

or busting!

wild nothing - cloudbusting
Uploaded by aftershadowplay. - Explore more music videos.

words and injestation

2010-09-26T13:24:00.000-07:00

uh-huh!

p.s.

CURTAIN CALL::: left shoulder, right eye.

2010-09-24T13:21:00.000-07:00

WHAT?

WHAT?

CURTAIN CALL:::

2010-09-24T13:10:00.000-07:00

letters and Soft Stabs

2010-09-20T09:41:00.000-07:00

moon catch'N net

2010-09-16T11:37:00.000-07:00

all over bod.

!!!

I've made me a moon-catchin' net,
And I'm goin' huntin' tonight,
I'll run along swingin' it over my head,
And grab for that big ball of light.
So tomorrow just look at the sky,
And if there's no moon you can bet
I've found what I sought and I finally caught
The moon in my moon-catchin' net.
But if the moon's still shinin' there,
Look close underneath and you'll get
A clear look at me in the sky swingin' free
With a star in my moon-catchin' net.

go news.

2010-09-15T11:31:00.001-07:00

they got us, right after gilligan fell into a car window and boobed a baby's face.

hoo-rah for tattoo machine

2010-09-15T11:18:00.000-07:00

gett'N crafty!

p.s. look at theeeeesee:
FOR MORE.

THIS MOVIE (add to yo'list'of'muss'seeEEs)

2010-09-15T10:46:00.000-07:00

these are all so vital:

DARK CITY:
(written/directed by: alex proyas)

Waking Life
(written/directed by: richard linklater)

"a thousand years has been an instant, there is nothing new, nothing different, same pattern over and over, the same clouds, the same music, the same as i felt, an hour or an eternity ago, there is nothing here for me now, nothing at all, now i remember... this has happened to me before, this is why i left.
You have begun to find your answers, although it will seem difficult, the rewards will be great, exercise your human mind as slowly(fully)?) as possible, knowing that it is ONLY an exercise; build beautiful artifacts, solve problems, explore the secrets of the physical universe, savor the imprint of all the senses, feel the joy, sorrow, the laughter, the empathy, the compassion it took the most of your memory in your travel bag, i remember where i came from, and how i became a human and why i hung around, and now my final departure is scheduled, this way out, escaping velocity, not just eternity, but INFINITY"

(yeah i tried to lissen and copy write, but it's amazing.)

http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=7583894250854515095#

A Scanner Darkly
(written by: philip k. dick/ directed by: richard linklater)

and so it FAK"N goes

2010-09-15T10:34:00.000-07:00

GELSEY MAILED ME THE BEST PACKAGE EVER AND IT MADE MY DAY
made my life
made my day turn into night
and round and round my mind
it spun
through the pretty pictures
and brain twisting puns.

i like it
i like it

HOO RAH FOR SWEET BEANS!

(thanks-you-dah*ling)

happy family

2010-09-11T17:47:00.000-07:00

this:

makes me:

get naked all over the town.

2010-09-11T17:29:00.000-07:00

ON YOUR BICYCLES

manifesting into the dream

2010-09-11T17:00:00.000-07:00

GOOD THINGS

2010-09-11T16:55:00.000-07:00

THE DAY OF THE EYE CURL

2010-09-11T16:41:00.000-07:00

toe curl.
wind hurl.
mind twirl.

YES!

This and That like Time

2010-09-02T15:37:00.000-07:00

stars and rocks

2010-09-02T15:01:00.000-07:00

how nice.

2010-09-02T15:00:00.000-07:00

p.s.

http://asthmatickitty.com/news.php?newsID=615

heads Up

2010-08-28T13:40:00.000-07:00

words like dis EASE

2010-08-27T11:47:00.000-07:00

turning webs into rivers

2010-08-27T11:33:00.000-07:00

i think i have switched train cars

2010-08-21T13:03:00.000-07:00

suddenly.

bring me STORM

2010-08-17T09:59:00.000-07:00

rain and death , damp and alive

2010-08-17T09:11:00.000-07:00

click em so they can grOW.!

indeed.

2010-08-16T15:32:00.000-07:00

oh and,
IDIDNTKNOWTHAT!

and lissen to the new Books album yet?

do.
it's called The Way Out,

here is a blog describing it.

oh shit, and the crowd pleasers, are absENT

2010-08-16T12:43:00.000-07:00

because we destroyed them.

things like this

2010-08-14T12:25:00.000-07:00

make me feel:

alas, i meet my,

2010-08-14T12:16:00.000-07:00

((self))

XXgraceXX

TOday:

the Other day:

click it

2010-08-12T15:12:00.000-07:00

YAY FOR THOUGHT

"It is immediate and intuitive, what used to be called gnosis: we know a thing by imaginatively participating in its unique quality rather than by objectively measuring its quantity. The sudden illumination at dead of night, the flash of lightning in the darkness, the "Newton's Apple" moment -- these provide the germ of a theory or of a whole vision of the world which is then painstakingly confirmed by empirical methods. "

-patrick harpur

today like yesterday

2010-08-12T14:27:00.000-07:00

well except today is Gray and cool.

and-eye-lohv-it.

and i think
that today is just like
yesterday
but yesterday has a different
name
and i feel that names can be
A BIT
limiting. make me feel a bit
DISTANT
from what ever it is, Truely.
and if i call this thing i feel
a nother name.
well-shit, than eye have taken a step up
and sunk'N a Level Down.
the air is not suffocating me
today,
and this is a way of naming
my breath.
and as my chest
rises
and falls
rises
and
falls
rises and falls risesandfallsrisesandfalls
eye think about thinking about
thinking.
and i see circles and lines
and not ONE
NAME
to this Thought.
just. a. thought.
and as the vines creep
UP'N'AROUND,
my kneck,
my spine,
eye feel less than Entangled,
and more than Embraced,
My Brain is soon to submit,
to this strangle,
to this hinder,
and my body will succumb,
and as all of THIS IS HAPPENING,
there is a growth,
and a decay,
a Blossom,
and a Mold,
the old is new
and the new is old,
our names are becoming translucent,
our definitions run a'Mok,
our power deeply
harnessed
in the
LIGHT
inside of me,
outside of me,
mAKING THIS VINE GROW.
I am my own worst enemy.
I am my own best friend.
I am the alien at the register,
and the mouse in the sewer,
Today is one
and Tomorrow is One too.
This is why i will probably never
get OVER you.

gett'n BY (e)

2010-08-10T09:03:00.000-07:00

Curious Common Coincidences (**please talk to me on this one!)

2010-08-07T14:22:00.001-07:00

if nothing else,

(note:laughter)uh

what dooo youuuuuuu thinkkkkkkkk abouttttt IT?

nice things.

2010-08-07T10:03:00.000-07:00

alas the note pad is complete.

2010-08-07T09:47:00.001-07:00

and of course the SKY jus^ keeps gett^n wild^r.

wild wild WILD existence

2010-08-07T09:29:00.000-07:00

i have begun noting what i have begun to call (as it popped into my head & i agreed)-

Curious
Common
Coincidences

Wild shit. happening all the time. and even just being A'TAD'BIT out of the ordinary, note it. write it down even. and witness a TON of it.
i like it.

it makes me feel less alone.

Cool things working out.

I counted about twelve yesterday. (RIGHT ON! RIGHT?!)

i think so.
well-have fun.

and i finally played a little bit!: (click^n^gro_)

Fuzzy Mind

2010-08-05T07:47:00.000-07:00

p.s. : wild busiNess.

time banks... uhhh

2010-08-05T07:45:00.000-07:00

time : THE NEXT CURRENCY

aw-man.

read a bit? (p.s. this site ruleS)

roof top lohv'n

2010-08-05T07:21:00.000-07:00

well,sorta'.

all i have is this ribbon

2010-08-01T10:44:00.000-07:00

i was laying in bed next to tony and i thought

2010-07-27T15:43:00.001-07:00

what the FUCK could the human body possibly to when electrocuted?

((some say "it's OK"))

loooooooooook

mo'

pull'n some chords

2010-07-25T08:53:00.000-07:00

this book mak'n me wild.

so many possibilities.

Grandfather Paradox

oh yes, i am getting closer

2010-07-24T13:25:00.001-07:00

to

fool

fool

fool'n

((myself))

(((or -you)))

either way.

i'm getting what it is i am breathing for.

a series of oddities

2010-07-22T11:31:00.000-07:00

...it was the wildest sky i'd ever seen.
and my face was falling off.

yes!

2010-07-19T13:00:00.000-07:00

mystical brain stuff.

science and trips
in one small
NOM.

this song

2010-07-19T12:09:00.000-07:00

bod

2010-07-19T12:02:00.000-07:00

very happy about this rainy day

2010-07-14T15:37:00.000-07:00

and this pretty boy

sitting at the cafe...

2010-07-13T10:41:00.000-07:00

men walking by.

"...there's a thin line between honesty & stupidity"

oh MAN.
how would'eye'ah'ever'KNOWN!

the foggy air around us was blinding

2010-07-13T10:18:00.000-07:00

hear it ?

mountains and melodies

2010-07-09T17:24:00.000-07:00

oh this song.
this song.
this song.

this sums up the woods

2010-07-08T11:00:00.000-07:00

and our adventures
and cliff jumps

via mitzi's phone:

for you belly...

2010-07-08T10:55:00.001-07:00

giggle he
ha
ha

stay in it

2010-07-08T10:51:00.000-07:00

eyes eyes eyes eyes EYES

2010-07-07T17:49:00.000-07:00

oh my oh my

the past two days have consisted of this:

and it has been SOHOTTTTTTTT.

thank ((time)) for public fountains.

it's a ton of fun.

and EYE ooooogleee city.

yesterday,

there were these set of very special ones that made my heart skip a beat ('OR TWO)
-or 5....
-or a hund'dred

any who-
i chased them.
and stopped them.
and i think soon.
i will see them again.
crystal blue.
oh my

oh my

i WAN MY HEART TO do th'th''tha' THAT THING AGAIN.

(oh

fuck.).

on never waiting

2010-07-03T08:46:00.000-07:00

on never waiting?
on never and how
THAT'S silly.
about how we just don't know how to do it.
or do we.
fuck If EYE know.
but i do, i do, i absolutely DO
wonder.
and that's enough to give me something, eh?
some - thing.
at least a mind full of space
and pockets filled to the BRIM
with
shag.
with cookies.
with dust from time.
to time.
we go and come,
and this is the pattern,
our brains do that thing,
the cycle,
the rhythm,
the motion, of the planet,
its all the same
.
so THATs why it feels so good
feels so good
to
DANCE.
i understand.
i conquer.
eye dropmyheadinwondER.
the heat is kicking back in.
and our communication is dull
like the plate that shattered but did not
break.
it happened but
it did not.
i am here.
but i am not.
my body is pumping
the
blood
the oxygen
but my feeling
my flame
the flame i would not loose.
the fire i would not dare put out,
it's no where to be found.
(except for in that HEART - but eye cannot let that OUT).
just a figment.
just a glance.
come with me to the park,
and we can lay in the grass,
come with me to space,
and we can float for FLOATINGS SAKE.
the poison we drink.
the poison we eat.
it fumbles our words.
and our letters become toys.
toys that can pleasure
and kill.
toys that are played, not all ways
so well.
our distance is within.
our distance is deep.
holes.
to feel whole.
(that was the flame).
eye think we can do this.
the hope is still there.
at the bottom of my belly,
i get sparks everyday.
i remember those feelings,
they have not gone away.
my brain just clusters
and musters
and exPLORES WITH ALL ITs MIGHT.
and eyeee mighhT.
(you-know?).
the mornings are quiet here.
the streets are desolate.
every one was out LATE last night,
and today is another
fucking beautiful day,
and the trees are pure, they
know better.
they glow so wonderfully, and they say
to me,
i am the beauteee, i am the treee, i love you
and i know you love ME.
rhyming makes my brain feel OK.
and so it
goes.
The day parades its greatness,
as the beings drag their
heavy eyes
and as the sun rises,
so do our souls,
it goes this way naturally,
but our dirt filthy,
and our lights are bare.
barely here.
or barely there.
it may rain oil,
and if that DOES occur,
well,
i want you to love,
and i will see you
soon enough.

the ever present : NOW_WHA?

2010-07-03T08:43:00.001-07:00

is it reeeal?

2010-07-03T08:09:00.001-07:00

colors!

2010-07-02T13:38:00.001-07:00

of the sun!

hip!
hip!

uhh-huhh....

2010-07-02T12:56:00.000-07:00

NEW BOOKS

2010-07-02T11:45:00.000-07:00

http://earz-mag.com/2010/04/new-release-the-books-the-way-out/

FIND IT!

and if you can't...
email me your address and i will MAIL YOU IT, at my PLEASURE! =D

definitely good for your

2010-07-02T11:20:00.000-07:00

HEALTH

oh my.
oh my.

saw them loosing their minds at the church a week or so ago.

was the hardest i've ever succumbed to noise.
body went NUTS.

sosososososo good.

if you ever get the chance,
FEEL THEM live.

how was

2010-07-01T17:49:00.001-07:00

jail?

you must'a been in spire d

2010-07-01T09:11:00.000-07:00

Yeah, Yeah, tell me about your dirty feet.

2010-07-01T09:03:00.000-07:00

my eyes were very open

2010-06-29T12:05:00.000-07:00

http://www.courierpostonline.com/apps/pbcs.dll/gallery?Avis=BZ&Dato=20100629&Kategori=NEWS01&Lopenr=629001&Ref=PH

last night i was waiting for the train,
and i watched a man
leap in front of it.
blew my mind.
blew my eyes,
i was the only witness,
if i hadn't seen,
the train would have moved on.
he would have died.
he suffered from a broken leg.

to witness a being
attempt to end their life
is a staggering
boggling
stunning
thing.

the cops called me
a hero.
and told me to write that in my report.
why would i write that in my report?
the man who suffers
from his brain
to his
toes.
his body is delicate
his mind is venomous
it's replaying in my head
and i am cringing
like the first time
i saw him
go.

oh my.

people, your flesh is delicate,
please do not let your mind
eAT YOUR BODY.

our hearts need hugs.
my heart needs
a
hug.

mmm hmmm

2010-06-28T11:16:00.000-07:00

keep on diggin' players.

holes within holes

my mornings

2010-06-28T10:45:00.000-07:00

are spent in wonder

my afternoons

are spent

wet

in sweat

the heat comes out of my body
like i am

the sun

the light.

my nights are spent

in dream

land

living just like eye imagine.

do they believe that an orange warms the stomach?

2010-06-28T09:57:00.000-07:00

you would know.

(((WHERE THE CREEK at.))?

we had a lot of fun yesterday.

(they look wilD if you click'em- i promise).

WOMEN

2010-06-26T10:45:00.000-07:00

lissen.

look.

the good things in the found section

2010-06-26T10:41:00.000-07:00

to balance with the letters ja'KNOW.

oh poop!

2010-06-24T14:47:00.001-07:00

MTV HD Crow from mate on Vimeo.

it may be smiple but it sure is KIND TO YER EYE!

hoo-rah for BP

2010-06-24T14:44:00.000-07:00

Wizard Smoke from Salazar on Vimeo.

all i have is letters

2010-06-22T12:47:00.000-07:00

a b c's
sorted and
fucked.

and i learn the best things from the wisest players
when i sit at the cafe.
today,
"...coming from a girl who dances her ass off, its my gym, its my church, its my canvas,
so fuck off."

and it just went on!

sitting in marvel.

consequential -, no - sequential.

2010-06-15T15:11:00.000-07:00

yeah!

one night out and i sunk so deep

2010-06-14T13:18:00.000-07:00

my brain is on the same level
as your feet
and my body is
flipped
upside
down
down
up
side

I FOUND ALL THIS WOOD

2010-06-11T14:46:00.001-07:00

and now I CAN DO THIS STUFF

alalalala

remember to roll

2010-06-11T14:06:00.000-07:00

baby

2010-06-11T14:03:00.000-07:00

we played in the rain all day
and i could
not
have
been
more
content.

grass

2010-06-11T13:54:00.000-07:00

WOOOO!

been lay'n in it a lot lately
and eye mus'say
i once wrote a song
with gilligan
about rolling in the grass
literally
figuratively
what! lee.
, anywho.
it's nice and and feels nice and EYE LOHV IT

simplify 'til'ya'die, complexity depletes eh'ree cell, inside

2010-06-11T13:49:00.000-07:00

NEW RIBBON NEW RIBBON NEW RIBBON

hip!hip!

looooook.

2010-06-11T13:45:00.000-07:00

buddies saw them the other night, and sadly i was too broke, but they said they're lives were changed and minds obviously blown.

this is super:

LOOOOOK

today as a 'nutheR dAy

2010-06-07T05:03:00.001-07:00

i decided not to go to bed and to bike around the town because it's dawn
and i like this part.

brain:

love is a dog from hell

2010-06-03T12:59:00.000-07:00

can't stop.

feet of cheese
coffeepot soul
hands that hate poolsticks
eyes like paperclips
I prefer red wine
I am bored on airliners
I am docile during earthquakes
I am sleepy at funerals
I puke at parades
and am sacrificial at chess
and cunt and caring
I smell urine in churches
I can no longer read
I can no longer sleep.

eyes like paperclips
my green eyes
I prefer white wine

my box of rubbers is getting
stale
I take them out
Trojan-Enz
lubricated
for greater sensitivity
I take them out
and put three of them on

the walls on my bedroom are blue

Linda where did you go?
Katherine where did you go?
(and Nina went to England)

I have toenail clippers
and Windex glass cleaner

green eyes
blue bedroom
bright machinegun sun

this whole thing is like a seal
caught on oily rocks
and circled by the Long Beach Marching Band
at 3:36 p.m.

there is a ticking behind me
but no clock
I feel something crawling along
the left side of my nose:
memories of airliners

my mother had false teeth
my father had false teeth
and every Saturday of their lives
they took up all the rugs in their house
waxed the hardwood floors
and covered them with rugs again

and Nina is in England
and Irene is on ATD
and I take my green eyes
and lay down in my blue bedroom.